I only wish I had spent more time playing with her before I left S'pore for my long leave...sigh. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye, to make her laugh one more time, to tell her one last time that I love her. But how could I have known?
She was the only patient to call me by my name...and she's only two and a half years-old. She could remember every one of the nurses' names in my ward (and we have 40 over staff), and even some of the doctors. How can you not be touched or affected by a little girl who so affectionately calls you by name, asking you to "come here"?
And tomorrow I'm going to walk into the ward with no Putri there. She has always been there (she's never went home since birth), sometimes even for us to complain to. I was already missing her cheeky smile and laughter earlier last week, confident that she would still remember me after my absence for more than a week in the ward...she has an amazing memory and what's more amazing is her vocabulary.
I feel like I have so much to say but I don't even know where to begin...she was like one of us in the ward. I'm only grateful that I have many fond memories and pictures to remember her by. She loved taking pictures and often she would say, "Take picture...say cheese!"
*Thank you to my sisters and Merv for understanding and allowing me to grieve the loss of my long-term patient...and for allowing me to be a little human when we all know that I shouldn't have gotten so attached to Putri in the first place. It really means a lot when you just held me while I cried after receiving the news*
Okie I'm enjoying myself so much I'm wishing it could go on and on and on...
Today was meet-up day...went for breakfast with Tien Li, Mich, Steph, and Kristin (have not met Steph and Kris for ages!). And then in the afternoon when I was out for tea with Merv, who do we bump into but Darshana, Chan See Mei and another Indian girl whom I shook hands with and who looked like she knows me really well, but for the life of me, I can't seem to locate her nor her name anywhere in my memory...hmmm. And anyways, I was catching up mostly with Darshana la, haha...and now, I just got back from meeting Tien Li and Mich (again), Shan Na, and Qian Hong. Good la...haven't met them in years too...gosh, so much stories to tell. =P
Our family KL-Penang-KL (and a stop at Ipoh and Muar) trip was good! I was just gorging myself with food and seeking to satisfy my cravings...I came back to Kluang very much satisfied and, with what I hope is, a bigger capacity in my tummy (for the purpose of putting on more weight).
Oh boy...isn't it good to be back home. =) Okie I won't say I didn't think about work at all...because I did think about Putri (and I talk about her so much maybe Merv and my sisters are getting bored of my stories =P), and the ward ladies and how the Christmas party went, and out of a sudden today I was thinking if Taufiq went for his operation and if Joycelyn is already back home or not.
Oh well, a new year is approaching in a few days time...how time flies! Again, I'm wishing my annual leave would tarry on...fat hopes, Lydia Tang...okie this is a sign that I must sleep soon because I'm starting to dream too much.............
Now I am thinking about Jiejie, Jo, Pris and Jem...and thinking that they're such wonderful sisters, and I'm more than blessed to have them in my life.
I love you, Jiejie, Jo, Pris, Jem. =) Muacks muackssssssss *very very very wet kiss haha*
This is still one of my favourite pictures of us... =)
Oh gosh, I just pigged out on a bag of potato chips...if only my sisters were here, then I wouldn't be feeling so umm, guilty. Hehe...
Anyways, Merv is coming tomorrow and then we'll go back to Kluang after my morning shift. =) I haven't seen him in two weeks and I'm missing him heaps. I know, I shouldn't whine about it since Kluang is so near but I don't know why it's not so bearable now compared to when he was still in Penang and we met only like what, 3 months once? Haha, I must be getting my geography and sense of time confused... =P
Last Saturday Chin Fang had her birthday BBQ at East Coast Park and it was pretty relaxing (for me)...away from work and just chilling out with Sangeetha, Sheran (and her entertaining cousins, haha), Zul, Chin Fang, Shan. It was just a different day la...no work, nothing much to do except relax. I was savouring it...you wouldn't be interested in what I do on a typical working day (ask Merv if you wanna know, he knows it in and out like brushing his teeth with his eyes closed =P).
Okie speaking about that, I'd better go brush my teeth now before I put my head into other junkie stuff. Oh boy...such evil cravings. And I'm not even PMS-ing. Gah...
I is missingness my sisters very very much...