And you say...

* the loveLY. the ugLY.....

Thursday, September 28, 2006
supposed-LY
This is the way it's supposed to be...

(1) Exercising at least three times a week...
(2) Making a time-table or a study plan...AND following it.
(3) Eating healthy meals.
(4) Gettin' enough sleep...
(5) Feeling real good because you have achieved all of the above.


And what have I achieved?

(1) Excercised and done some work-outs twice this week...been making full use of my skipping rope and doing my ballet stretching again. I kinda miss ballet classes...but not the muscle-aches that come with them. Haha...
(2) Made a study plan...sticking to it, although I'm one day behind schedule. SIGHHHHHHHH!
(3) I've not only been eating properly...I've been CRAVING for this and that and almost all the food I see!!! Must be the hormones...must be...it's a good thing, though. I'm on a weight-gaining regime (umm I've always been...it's an ongoing process). Heeheeh...
(4) Hmmm...I've not exactly been sleeping early, but I get enough sleep lah...
(5) I FEEL GOOD! Maybe because I've been working out...nyeh nyeh nyeh...and eating to my tummy's delight... =P
Posted by ltsmei at 10:33 PM ~
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Frustration
i am tired and not very happy and my laundry is in a mess all i
wanted was to do my own laundry but someone came into
my room and dumped the whole pile of clothes into the
washing machine i will be honest here i am not a
fussy person but i am particular about my
laundry and the way it is washed and
hung up to dry and where it is
dried and how it smells after it is dried
i am not happy can you imagine my jeans
have been washed three times this month i am
frustrated and irritated at myself and feeling stupid i did
not have a fruitful afternoon and the fact that I have a theory
test tomorrow does not help at all i need to study more tonight

ERGHHHHHHH!!!!!
Posted by ltsmei at 6:32 PM ~
Monday, September 25, 2006
Random updates
A baby girl grabbed at my shirt in the bus that day...she was just grabbing and grabbing and grabbing...AND...umm, at unwanted places too. Sheesh...I was a victim of baby aggression!!! *Shrieks*

Been reading a lot lately.

I have a pile of lecture notes awaiting me. They love me...and me? I just feel'eth obligated to attend'eth to them...hahahaha...

Me is missing me sisters.

The hormones in my body do funny stuff to me...funny as in, the weird funny, not-very-pleasant funny, leaves-you-feeling-uncomfortable funny. NOT the haha funny...

Had one nice pleasant dream last week...... =D

I realize that sometimes, feelings can be too overwhelming...but they are just feelings. That's why you can never depend on your feelings alone...and that's when DECISION needs to come in.

I must really learn how to multi-task better...sighhhhh........

I remembered something Jit told me once: When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully. Only one out of two things can happen...either He will catch you when you fall, or He will teach you how to fly.

*Thanks, Jit...up till today, I find so much encouragement in that one simple truth*
Posted by ltsmei at 6:35 PM ~
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Still amazed
Oh Lord, You've searched me,
You know my way;
Even when I fail You,
I know You love me.

The way God speaks still amazes me...

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,
plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future."
-Jeremiah 29:11

Posted by ltsmei at 7:59 PM ~
Saturday, September 16, 2006
"He's twenty four"
I forgot to say this yesterday...was in the bus on my way to school yesterday and I bumped into my neighbour. She lives two units away from us...so she started talking...asking me about my studies, how long more I have to study, blah blah blah...

Then she starts talking about her son...telling me what he's doing, what he did after NS, this and that.....then, "He's twenty four."

And I was thinking...okkkkkkieee.....

And on and on she rambled about her son...in her sort of broken English. Me, being the polite young lady that I am (haha =P), listened and even walked with her...well, I mean...I felt obliged to. Because she was walking in the same direction as me...and I was late for lecture five minutes...

But all the while me was thinkin'...why are you telling me about your son?!?!??!? Me is NOT interested!!!

"How old are you?"

"Twenty."

"Wahh...!! So young!"

I had nothing else to say...when we parted ways, I walked with all the speed I could muster and went into class looking flustered...
Posted by ltsmei at 11:22 AM ~
Friday, September 15, 2006
Over and done with...
I'M BACK IN KLUANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It feels good to be back home after two weeks of sheer busybusybusy-ness, and one whole week of sleeping at like, 1.00am-3.00am...finally...presented our two projects yesterday and today. Despite the stress and pressure, we were enjoying ourselves...together with Candy, Sunny, Chin Fang, Sheran, Sangeetha, and Yu Xuan. * Girls, I appreciate every single one of you, your ideas, your creativity, and your cooperation...and a special thanks to Zul (again...hehe) for all your help. =) *

I think we did pretty well...maybe we didn't cover some points, but the most important thing is we enjoyed ourselves...preparing and also during presentation.

Now...I'm left with another two projects. But before I plunge into preparing for those two and for my final exams, I'm gonna enjoy this weekend...TOTAL rest.

By the way...I embarrassed myself today. Was in Larkin (bus stand in JB) and buying my ticket back to Kluang...and the guy said, "Pukul empat." (Translated: Four o'clock)

I gave him a look. "Pukul empat? Pukul tiga tak ada, eh?" (Translated: Four o'clock? Three o'clock one don't have?)

The guy looked at me like I was nuts...then he pointed to his watch, saying, "Sekarang sudah nak pukul empat!" (Translated: It's gonna be four o'clock!)

"Ohhh..." I stood there looking stupid while he issued me my ticket. Why would a person wanna get a three o'clock ticket when it's already four?!?!?? So paiseh, man...hahahahah......please remind me not to embarrass myself next time.....

Okie dokies...I'm gonna turn in early tonight. Dead tired.
Posted by ltsmei at 10:32 PM ~
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
School Trouble
This shall be the FIRST and the LAST time.

I think I could have died today...if an accident had actually taken place. Or I might have landed up being paralyzed for the rest of my life...

You see, what happened was...a few friends were playing with the stretcher (not the normal kind of stretcher...it's those with straps and a neck collar to immobilize the person on it...the kind they have in ambulances) after our formal lesson during clinical lab. They got hold of me at the arms and legs (despite my struggling) and pinned me down...strapped me to the stretcher and started giving me the "ride of my life"...

With me screaming frantically for them to put me down, they got even more excited...and THAT guy came over and encouraged them to lift me till their shoulder level. And of course, if you don't hear me screaming, there must be something REALLY wrong with you...so my lecturer heard and turned around. I guess she got the shock of her life...

I've never heard her speak in such an angry tone before...let alone a stern voice...because she's the motherly, kind-hearted and gentle kind of woman, hardly ever raise her voice. Everyone froze when she asked who's idea it was...two of my friends meekly owned up. Told them to go see her in her office...then she said, "Lydia, you also see me in my office, because you allowed them to do that to you."

I was like...WHATTT?!?!??!?! (in my heart lah)

Thank God one of my friends owned up that they actually forced me down...but anyways, I went to see her with them also. THAT guy came along...but I still can't believe that a twenty seven year-old guy can be such a.......a...a...don't-know-what-word-to-use...

I was darn speechless when he said, "Actually...when they were doing it, they knew they were responsible for their actions." We thought he was gonna own up and say that he was part of it as well, but nooooo........he said that instead...unbelievable.........

Yea, I know...such drama my life is.......

As I've said, this will be the first and the last time I'm getting into trouble at school...so yeah.

Advice of the day: If you ever get hold of Lydia by the arms and legs but she tells you to "let go", you'd better obey her commands...
Posted by ltsmei at 8:02 PM ~
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Reflections...
I had a pretty relaxing weekend...it was GREAT getting up from my beauty sleep at 11am plus on Saturday morning. =) Had lunch then did the laundry...lazed around, finished reading a book, took a shower.

Went to church for Team Time (that's when the whole music/worship ministry - my church in Singapore - gets together for a time of worship and Bible study, once a month) in the evening...was rather good. Reflective...and something I just needed to hear.

I did some self-reflection...I think I have changed a little in some ways, since the beginning of the year...

- For one, I know it very well that I'm getting better at my jokes...okie I know Isaac's gonna say something about this and laugh real hard. Haha...but really...I used to worry about all my tomorrows. Now, I'm enjoying and taking each day one at a time, telling five jokes or more on the way...hahahhaha...something good I learnt from someone (the person may not know this).

A perfect example of my lame jokes:

Male friend (MF): Wah, not bad...you can walk for quite long, eh?
Me: Why, of course! What do you think God gave me legs for?
MF: Haha...to put lotion and stuff on??
Me: Nah...that's to make them look nice and pretty when I walk!!!

- I'm also slowing down...on purpose, that is. Before I came to Singapore, I was slow. As in, doing things and stuff...Mum tells me I'm so meticulous that it slows me down especially when I'm cooking. She said coming to Singapore would hasten me up. Haha...she was right. But sometimes I think it makes me become impatient...so I'm PURPOSELY slowing down now...smelling the flowers on the way (what flowers??), admiring the scenic surroundings (hutan batu, that is. Translated: concrete jungle) ...taking in deep breaths of fresh air (umm...more like, polluted). Yupperdoodadoo...I'm slowing down (sorry, Mummy...I'm back to being slow). =)

- I'm more assertive...I don't allow people to climb over my head too much. But still learning...hehe.

- I've become more straight forward...I used to beat around the bush A WHOLE LOT (a particular someone got real annoyed about it). Not so much now...but I'm not all THAT straight forward lah...must have tact, mar...

Right now...I'm working on other areas. You and I wish I was perfect, but no, me ain't perfecto. God is not finished with me yet...

* God...I wanna be single-minded. I need spiritual discipline!!! Teach me, please.
Posted by ltsmei at 10:54 PM ~
Friday, September 08, 2006
Down Memory Lane
I met up with Tien Li and San Ni just now...looks like it has been a week of meeting-ups, huh. Haven't met San Ni in like...two years. Don't be surprised if I meet up with someone I haven't seen in three years next week. Haha...

I've been thinking...that some people are just not that easy to trust. Maybe because I've had some not-so-nice experiences lah. I mean...just imagine someone leading you by the hand while your eyes are blind-folded. And you follow that person...he/she sounds nice enough, trust-worthy. Then all of a sudden, you don't feel that hand holding yours anymore...you're left alone in the dark, blind, hurt, and worse still...you're left feeling like a total moron...

It really is true that relationships (all kinds) are made up of a million little things...trust is one of the most essential, I believe.

Lately, I've been finding myself walking down memory lane...thinking and reflecting upon the good old times, what people did for me, what people did with me (whether one-on-one or in a group)...reliving sweet memories of those whom I've spent time with...willing some to come alive again...

(Jiejie Eunice took this picture. I think it's nice although
it's a li'l blur...and yeap, that's me)

You'd be surprised at the kind of stuff I can remember...even little details which may seem insignificant. But memories of such details give me a nice feeling. =)
Posted by ltsmei at 9:04 PM ~
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
[no topic]
Just got back from having dinner with Rena at Thai Express...after not meeting up for like...one year already. That woman...so the busy-ness lah. But she's still the same... =)


This picture was taken during our first training session for the Philippines mission trip (which I never got to go because of a clash with attachments...hmmmph!)

Anyways on my way back on the bus, there was this little baby girl...the cutest baby ever...she kept peeking at me, so I made a face. You should have seen her response! She was so delighted and was squirming in her pram with such glee...she kept peeking, so I kept making faces. Real cute girl...

I'm wondering how it must be like having your own baby...hmmm. Ohkaaaaayyy...no boyfriend, no husband, no talk............................
Posted by ltsmei at 9:45 PM ~
Sunday, September 03, 2006
sick-LY
I spent the whole of Friday in bed...with an unwanted and uninvited guest. Its name is FEVER...

With FEVER also came a host of friends...HEADACHE, BODYACHE, RUNNING NOSE, and SORE THROAT. Oh, actually SORE THROAT dropped by on Thursday night...it woke me up twice from my beautiful and most precious sleep...

So following my dad's advice, I went to see the doctor on Friday night...he was a li'l surprised that FEVER came quickly. I was surprised, too...so he gave me some medication to help get rid of FEVER and Company.

Saturday came...spent the morning in bed. But after lunch, I had to get ready for band practice (couldn't find anyone to replace me). When we got to the Youth Centre, I realized that lo and behold, the keyboard wasn't there...I seriously wonder who was responsible. Hmmm. So, Daniel and Paulus had to go pick it up.

I left YF after worship ended...Daniel, the kind soul, drove me home (well, actually he had to get home early, too). Went straight to bed again...

Woke up this morning feeling much better...went to church. Now, FEVER, BODYACHE and HEADACHE are gone. Actually SORE THROAT's left, too...but it called its good friend COUGH to come replace it...

I don't think COUGH and RUNNING NOSE will leave tomorrow...I've lost ONE precious and significant kilogram...oh sighhhhh..........

By the way, I learnt a new word in church today (if you guys were listening closely, you would have heard it, too)...if anyone can tell me what "widthness" mean, I'll give you a pat on your back and tell you that you're real smart. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.............................................

Sorry...that was pure self-entertaintment...

What a break.
Posted by ltsmei at 11:48 PM ~