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Thursday, November 30, 2006
Making them right (hopefully)


More is to come...
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Overwhelmed
WARNING: LOOOOOOONG POST AHEAD!

I am so tired'ed. Was in church since 8.45am till 6.30pm today...it's like, almost ten hours!! Wooolah!

Anyways, I had a great week...a reallyreallyreally busy BUT great week.

Monday - work 8am-4pm at the operating theatre (OT)
Tuesday - work 8am-4pm
Wednesday - work 8am-4pm, discipleship group (DG) 7pm-9pm
Thursday - work 8am-4pm, meeting with CG leaders 6.30pm-10pm
Friday - work 8am-4pm, balik kampung to Kluang...Mum was alone (Dad was away in Miri, my sisters at camp)
Saturday - sweep and mop kitchen floor, fetched Doulos team, back to S'pore for band practice 7pm
Sunday (today) - church service, CG, extended worship session, Christmas at the block (C@TB) band practice

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It wasn't only a busy week...it was a week full of lessons as well...

QUIET TIME
Am being reminded again about this basic truth...QT is extremely vital and essential for all Christians...if you don't spend time with God, how would you get to know Him better? Knowing His WORKS/ACTS and knowing His WAYS are two totally different things...

It would be a sad thing to know about God but never really know Him.

NOT FIT FOR A KING?
Wednesday at DG, we were doing a lesson on finding your self worth...the sermon in church today was about connecting with God when feeling insecure...is God saying something? Definitely.

I sometimes get so sick and tired of people's comments on me looking older than my age, the "auntie" remarks and all that...I know they may be kiddin' and just playin' around, but it does get to me at times. I don't hold a grudge, but yeah, those comments do cut at times...

I don't even know why I bother, actually...I do at times, feel insecure, I'm not good enough, I should be "something more", someone prettier, someone with higher standards, someone with a better heart, comparing myself with others, doubting my abilities...

But really...so what if I'm not that tall...so what if my eyes are so small that when I smile they disappear...so what if people don't like the way I look...or the way I dress.

Who cares...I am the daughter of a King, my God. He likes me. I live to impress no one, to please no one.

I am fit for a King.

BAND PRACTICES ARE FUN(NY)
Yeaps. Caleb is super duper blur...even today, when we were already up at our instruments for worship, he had to ask me what our first song was (!!!!!).

But yeah, band practice was really funny yesterday...if you ask me now what was so funny, I can't remember...hahahaha. =P But I just remember it being filled with laughter lah...

Oh I just realized that I'm the only girl in the C@TB band...haha, well I'm used to it.

I enjoy serving with these people. =)

GOD CALLS ALL KINDS OF PEOPLE
CG today was awesome...the newest member of our CG was sharing about how God has been providing for him ever since he was released from prison...yes, he's an ex-convict but I tell you, his story is so encouraging.

He shared about God's abundant provision for him, since his family doesn't want to support him now...how some days he wouldn't even have enough money for food and transport but God would bring someone on the way and bless him with enough for his needs. And next year he'll be continuing his high school, and he's been provided with a sponsor for his books, uniform, fees...

He also shared about how God used him when he was in prison (he became a believer while in prison).

As I sat there listening to him, my seemingly big problems suddenly became nothing compared to his...it's like, gosh!! I've been so self-centered all this while! There are people out there who have much more troubles which are so real, and yet they trust God...

If you wanna meet a really humble person, this is the guy for you.

WORSHIP
Sam talked about worship today, during the extended worship session.

My attitude in worship should be one of IMMEDIATE and COMPLETE obedience...and sacrifice. No doubt, a struggle at times...but I should be doing the right thing even when I don't feel like it...

SYNCOPATION
I am so bad at syncopated notes. Syncopated Notes! SYNCOPATED NOTES!!! Gaaaaaaahhh!

But it's funny how I really like syncopated rythm...hmmm. Well, playing and listening are two different things altogether, I guess...

I'm a comparatively slow learner when it comes to coordination...I can choreograph and teach dance steps and come up with rythms...but I learn SLOW. As in, learning the "ready made" ones. You know what I mean?

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So there...now you know why we have a very tired Lydia here...and don't think that learning many lessons isn't tiring...

But what a fulfilling week. =)

* Lord, You overwhelm me...I will never be able to put into words the magnitude of Your awesomeness and faithfulness. How can I not praise You? If I cease to praise You, the rocks will soon cry out...
Monday, November 20, 2006
please show me YOUR way
The next chapter of my life will soon begin...in less than six months' time, I suppose. It's so scary...I have to make more decisions now...and be more discerning.

I honestly don't know...oh sigh. Growing up is SO. NOT. EASY...

Was talking with Joshua after band practice yesterday...whatever he shared with me, well...I don't know if it's God speaking through him. I mean, whatever he said sounded really, really exciting...but...how would I know if I'm gonna choose the right one, now that I have so many options???

This feels like post-SPM days all over again...deciding which path to trod on. HELP ME, GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways, I was in a freezer today...it was reallyreallyreally cold in the operating theatre. I have no idea how the staff there can get through eight hours without a jacket or sweater. Gosh...we students were shivering away, even with double layer of scrubs on. SCRUBS!!! I like wearing scrubs! Don't needa iron my curtain-thick uniform...heeheehee............... =D
Saturday, November 18, 2006
ERGHH!
Can someone please tell me why
my freakin' air-cond
is still leaking even after being
serviced??!
And why is that stupid stain not coming off
my favourite white t-shirt?!?

(Sorry, this is one weird Saturday)
For this season...
Someone recently asked me, if nursing is my passion...wanna know the truth? Well, nursing is NOT my passion. I am telling you the truth...I have never thought I'd ever be a nurse.

So what's my passion? This:

I love making cards...I love making backdrops for functions...I love doing decorations...I love making things with my hands...I love colours...I love dancing...I love playing the piano...

Yeaps, LOVE is the word. These are my passion...I know, so artsy. I remember wanting to be a fashion designer once...then I wanted to do interior designing. And then I wanted to be a wedding planner (that was for a short while lah...I know, it's funny. You may now laugh for a minute).

And you're asking, "So why join nursing?"

I have only one answer for you. It's simple...this is where God wants me to be for this season, though I know not how long this season would last. And I have no doubt about it...I do doubt, though, if I will ever be like one of those really competent nurses, knowing exactly what to do in an emergency, having all health knowledge at the tip of the fingers...

But I love serving my patients. And it's really rewarding when my patients say a simple thank you, when they show some sort of appreciation, when they smile to express the words they can't find...

If you were to ask me now, "What if you were to do it all over again...would you still have chosen nursing?"

Again, my answer is simple...YES. I have no whatsoever regrets at all...I would still have chosen this path. I have seen God's faithfulness throughout, and without a shadow of doubt, I know that He will see me through this season, to the very end...and for ALL the seasons to come.

My God is a faithful God. =)
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Quick updates
Friday, 10th Nov
Arrived in KL for dinner...went to fetch my cousin Kay Aun. I guess he was really excited to see us (he was alone because he has SPM soon and couldn't go to Jakarta with his family) because he was waiting outside his house when we reached...hehe...

Saturday, 11th Nov
Jo woke us up at 7.30am...I know, I know...we're supposedly on holidays, but we were going ice-skating and she was soooooooo excited. Haha...so of we (me and my sisters) went to Sunway Pyramid (Aun had to study).

Ice-skating was...FUN. But PAINFUL. We stuck to the sides for a while...and then we got more daring and ventured out further from the sides. We fell, of course...only people like Jem, fell twice throughout the whole three hours. I fell so many times...and got two BIG bruises on my palms, a hurt butt, and a sore body...haha. No pain, no gain. =)

Dad, Mum and the Chengs came and we had lunch...and Terry joined us, too. Then jalan-jalan a bit before I had to sit down (ice-skating IS tiring). So Terry and I got a drink while the others were...umm shopping.

Went for wedding dinner at night...I was pretty beat. Went straight to bed after we got back from dinner...

Sunday, 12th Nov
We went to Youth Church, FGA KL...not the parents, of course. After church, we went for a quick lunch and then back to Kluang. Got home late evening...then headed to church for Shalom's Awards Nite. Ryan graduated high school! Hehe...

Monday, 13th Nov
Got back to S'pore in the morning, went straight to the ward for my noon shift.

Today, 16th Nov
A patient collapsed in the ward...everything became hectic all of a sudden. Nurses and doctors running here and there, shouting out instructions...my heartbeat also quickened. Resuscitation wasn't successful...oh sigh... =(

I helped clear up the body after that...my first time...

While helping dress a patient, she shitted on my shoe...it was yuckadoo.

Anyways, I am sooooo disappointed in myself...I actually forgot David's birthday on the 14th!!!!!!!!! How can it be??! I am Lydia Tang, the non-forget'er of birthdays!!! Oh gosh...close friend, somemore. I feel so bad... *I'll make it up to you, David. I will...*

Last one...HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TAI KAR JIE!!! You are the best oldest sister anyone could ever have...thank you for making me laugh, for scolding me (otherwise, I wouldn't be where I am today, haha), for praying with and for me, for your advices, your trust and for being there whenever I needed someone to be there. =) I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Psssst.....
I found a worm in my lunch the other day (it was about 1.5 cm long and looked like an over-sized maggot). Threw it out and continued eating...hahahahaha........

I had the most excruciating stomach ache that day...stomach aches, in my most-est humble-est opinion, are the WORST kinds of pain. I honestly felt like I was dying...

I did a dressing for a patient with the most gruesome wound...it was SO big and deep, I could see her spine. Really.

I got back to Kluang this morning...left while it was still dark. I was nearing the immigration checkpoint and wondering how come I kept getting stares...so I thought maybe I looked really terrible. I mean, after all I hadn't brushed my teeth yet. Hehe... =P

So I looked upon myself, and lo and behold.........I had my top on terbalik. Like, inside out...

Yeah okie...you may now laugh at me. But...BUT, only for today.

I went for Jem's Hari Anugerah Cemerlang...she was "Tokoh Murid". I am so proud of her. =) Anyways, I was talking with my ex-primary school teacher and she asked, "Bila mau kahwin?" (translated: When are you getting married?) Riiiight...

Lesson of the day: DO NOT get dressed in the dark.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
What I would really like right now...
.....is this:

...and this...

...and this.

My b-e-a-u-tiful weekend is over...and I thought it has just begun.

Went to Niyor on Thursday evening with Jit, Jem, Xueqi, Josie and Caleb...we had "church service" for 'em people there. I learnt that they don't live in houses like you and I do...no bathrooms like yours and mine...my attachment pocket money per day is more than what they earn in TWO days (and they have families to support)...I am MORE than blessed. Oh, and I can still understand Malay very well...I even understood the chim words during sermon. =)

Friday morning was spent doing the laundry. Scrubbing Dad's and Pris' shirts...you know, the collars and the armpits and the sleeves...yes. I think I've picked up many of Mum's laundering habits...and I seriously need to learn how to scrub without getting backaches...

Saturday morning and night was spent figuring out chords for more songs we're gonna do for Christmas...I need a hand massage.

Went to church this morning, came back, watched CSI (yay!), watched a movie called Honey...great movie! I love it. All about dance...aren't I inspired all over again.....................

So...attachment begins tomorrow...and lasts for a month. And no, I'm not complaining.