* the loveLY. the ugLY.....

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

same same

My life is still very much the same Chinese serial drama...it really is so like it, man. You know, with all the twists and turns, how the good suddenly becomes bad and everyone cannot trust anyone anymore? Yeah, it's like that...

Apart from that, well...I'm on attachment now at the mental hospital. I have to say that it is totally different from the usual wards. IT IS SO CRAZY!!! I hope for only two things: Firstly, that at the end of this two weeks I'll still remain in ONE piece (because I'm in a male ward where aggression and violence are pretty normal), and secondly, I won't become mentally absurd.

Meet a few people in my ward (no names will be mentioned for privacy sake):

Mr. God...some patients refer to him as god because he's always hogging the newspapers - reading it for HOURS then laughing and commenting to the voices/people that only he hears/see - and they think that he thinks he's god because he does that.

Mr. Pork Chop...okie that's the name I use when referring to him...that was his obsession yesterday. Today's obsession was socks and shoes and he kept shouting "My father don't like you!" to me, in his loud booming voice. When he first shouted at me yesterday, I almost jumped out of my skin. Here's what happened: Another patient's relative had come and brought food for him > Mr. Pork Chop saw and was jealous > Mr. Pork Chop kept repeating after that, that he wanted pork chop > Nurses said that there isn't any pork chop > Mr. Pork Chop pulled a long face and kept making known his deep craving for pork chop > Mr. Pork Chop turned to Ms. Lydia Tang and shouted, "Sa Po!!!" at her (she doesn't even know what that means...must be some dialect or is it Mandarin??) > Mr. Pork Chop walked around the ward still expressing his desire for pork chop > Mr. Pork Chop with an extremely angry face, stands two metres away from Ms. Lydia and took off his shirt and flung it in her direction, which swept through her hair, slightly missing her face > Ms. Lydia got a fright > The End. Haha...

Mr. President...yups. He thinks he's the mightiest and greatest, he thinks he's the president. But well, grandiosity is one symptom of his mental illness lah...it's real funny, though. =P

Mr. Masturbator...okie 18SX!!! Children and teenagers under 18 shouldn't read!! This chap here...he keeps sticking one hand into his pants all the time, sometimes both hands. I won't mention further of the thing he does...it's disgusting, I know...

Mr. Boss...he is soooooo bossy and loves directing people around, what to do and what not to do. It got so bad today and I was irritated. Sheesh.

Mr. Smarty-Pants...sigh. This guy...I don't know what to say lah. He's apparently a very techie person...all he talks about is the internet, the police, and how everyone is crazy except him, blah blah blah. He makes me sit down next to him and talks non-stop. I mean, NON-STOP!! Gosh.

There are others, but I shan't say anymore. The only sane peeple in the ward are three other nursing students and the present but absent staff nurses (if you get what I mean)...I thought my head was about to burst this morning, being surrounded by so many mentally ill people. It's like, people around you are just walking around, doing NOTHING the WHOLE DAY!!! It's insane...I cannot tahan. It is sad lah, I have to admit...but this kind of environment, hmmm...it's just not for me to work in. Plus, all we do is play and talk and play and talk with them. That's it! Aiyoyoh, not for me lah...

3.00pm, 09 February 2007, please come quick. I need to get out of this mental hospital.

Posted by ltsmei at 11:17 PM ~

Sunday, January 28, 2007

.....

God, I'm in disbelief...I'm angry and mad and utterly upset and frustrated and disappointed. And tired.

So I'm asking You to please give me strength.

Posted by ltsmei at 9:51 PM ~

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Basic principles

Children are given to parents to love and to protect...

...and that's what my Daddy and Mummy do.

Not only physically, but mentally, emotionally, financially, and most importantly, spiritually. My parents don't have to say a thousand and one words for me to understand that they love me...I know it in the way they smile, and when they crack jokes, when they correct me if I go astray, and even when they sometimes tease me about my love life (or rather, the lack of it).

I am so glad that my parents understood long ago, that with great privilege also comes great responsibility.

I love them.

* God, I thank You for Dad and Mum. No one on earth can ever replace them.

Posted by ltsmei at 7:27 PM ~

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Double trouble

The only way to describe my life right now is...it's like a Chinese serial drama.

I could really do without all of those problems right now...please, not in my final semester when we have to squeeze twelve weeks' worth of study into eight weeks. It's too much. I could die of stress...

And I wonder why troubles have to hit you simultaneously, all at one time.

Posted by ltsmei at 9:23 PM ~

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Insanity

I don't understand, God...I cannot understand...how some humans can be so heartless, devoid of compassion...so ruthless. So BRUTAL.

They are not thinking.

Posted by ltsmei at 7:10 PM ~

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

confess it, please

i know you like me...

.....you wanna kiss me...

i know you want me

...you think i'm sexy

Harhar...I am NOT perasan, okie. It's all Sheran's fault!!!
*glares at Sheran*
She kept singing this song in lecture today...and
after lecture, too...and every now and then for the
rest of the day. Now it keeps ringing in my
head...it's really not my fault!

But really...I know you like me. Honesty is the best policy.Yes...YOU!
Hahah... =P

Bye lah...I've got better things to do...like,
reading my textbook?
(Yah, so nerdy hor...)

i THINK you like me...
.......you think i'm crazy...
i KNOW you like me
...you wanna slap me

*runs away*

Posted by ltsmei at 9:24 PM ~

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Flood or not, still You're God

I don't know why...but I'm quite affected by the flood. I'm feeling sad and rather helpless...apart from praying for the victims and donating in kind/cash, I don't think I can do much...

Dad and Mum brought us around Kluang in the pick-up truck yesterday to see the flood..."to know what suffering means", Mum says. The flood did not affect me nor my family members in any physical way (we are fine; our house is on a hill)... in fact, I don't even know any of my friends who are affected by it physically. Yet, I feel something well up within me every time I think about the flood...

Some people may attribute the cause of the flood to our government, our drainage system, etc. True...I will not deny it. We really could do with much, much better drainage system...but the issue here and now is not about our government. If you have not personally seen the flood, you might not be able to fully understand nor grasp the impact it has on the flood victims.

It hasn't even been a month since the last flood, especially in Johore...I've seen the aftermath of it in December, in Muar. It was bad...I can't even begin to think how much those poor people have lost. Most importantly, how they are coping emotionally...and if you don't know yet, most of them are not very well-to-do with big families.

It's not that I'm questioning God why this has to happen...God is still God, and nothing can reduce nor erase that fact. Of this, I'm sure...I'm just affected lah. Maybe I'm beginning to understand what being compassionate truly means...

Posted by ltsmei at 6:01 PM ~

Friday, January 12, 2007

Three Weeks With My Brother

I'm back in Kluang for the weekend, and...it's been raining non-stop. Again. The flood's starting again...oh sigh....... *Lord, have mercy on us!!*

I've read yet another remarkable book by Nicholas Sparks. IT. IS. SO. SO. SO. GOOD.

"Three Weeks With My Brother" is not like any of his other books...it's totally different because all his other books are novels. Fiction. But this book...it is a memoir.

I've read all his other books, and when I finally got to read this (I've been wanting to, for a very long time), I must say that I'm amazed at how much Nicholas Sparks had gone through in life. I'd never imagine someone so famous and successful having gone through whatever he did. I honestly marvel at his strength despite the tragedies life hurled at him and his family...I am truly inspired...he writes with his heart.

I find it hard to explain how I felt after reading it...it rendered me speechless. So much so that I need to tell you guys about it here. Hahahah...I've spilled many tears over many books (and movies, hehe)...and I did the same when reading this book, if not more.

This book, I highly recommend to everyone.

Now, if I ever got to meet Nicholas Sparks in person.........................that would be a real honour, man.

Posted by ltsmei at 10:10 PM ~

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Clinical Laboratory

I'm missing those days...when we had Clinical Lab classes.

Those were days filled with fun and laughter and much chatter...whether the lecturer was present or out of the class to get something...or to attend to something else and we were left on our own to, supposedly, practice the skills we've been taught...

One particular day when a few of us
were co-incidentally wearing the same two
colours...we made ourselves head accessories from
wound dressing sets. And we had a photo shoot. Hahahaha...

Here's Zul and Lionel messing around with
bandages and stuff during one of the classes.

Another shot taken during lab session...

And of course...these people simply LOVE taking pictures...

Man...it was great fun (of course there were times when we got into trouble...BIG trouble, sometimes. Like when they decided to play and pin me down on the stretcher and almost shook the daylights outta me and I was screaming and begging for them to spare my life).

We don't have anymore clinical lab this semester. Sigh.....I miss those days!!! =(

Posted by ltsmei at 5:52 PM ~

Saturday, January 06, 2007

FACTS

You know you're getting older when...

.....you start getting your own wedding invitations. As in, YOUR OWN FRIENDS are getting married.

.....your friends think you need a boyfriend/girlfriend (they think you're too lonely and it's not good for you). Then they try to introduce you to any seemingly nice person that they know...

.....your siblings try to find you a life partner. They say, "I'm recommending good people, okay...not the rotten apples and lousy oranges and all." (Whatever "rotten apples and lousy oranges" mean...)

Anyways, I hate tummy cramps with all my heart and mind and soul and strength...I'm honest (TOS TOS TOS...haha, I think only jiejie Eunice will understand this! =P). ERGHHH!

Posted by ltsmei at 11:26 PM ~

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Back to school

Yay! =) I actually like going for classes...really. I didn't really enjoy my secondary school life...but I really enjoy going to school now. Although at times I still need to drag my lazy butt out of bed...

New year's eve was spent in Malacca with my family, shopping and eating and laughing and talking so much and laughing some more and playing and laughing some more. It was really fun...but I think my cousin Ting Shian has never met any other five girls who can laugh and talk so much. He was actually covering his ears with his hands! Haha...but I bet he enjoyed himself, too... =)

And on our way back to A'Famosa, we called Merv and everyone in the car sang him a really LOUD birthday song, ending with crazy screams and screeches by my sisters and me...hahahhahahahahahahh!!! I bet Merv's ear drums were about to burst! =P

It was a good trip. =)

Okie dokie...picture time!

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