And you say...

* the loveLY. the ugLY.....

Monday, July 31, 2006
imPERFECT
I wanted it.....I got it.....but I screwed it.

Sigh.

Had my skills assessment today...we were told we would be assessed on one of the four skills we've learnt. So fine...but I was hoping I would get a surgical hand-scrubbing scenario. Well, I got it. Imagine how elated I was.

Everything was PERFECT. Except......for one minute mistake. I ACCIDENTLY touched the part of the hand-towel which I had already used to wipe my hand. That's it. The lecturer assessing me gave me a look...so I explained to her that if such a thing happened in real life, I would scrub my hands all over again. She nodded her head.

But she failed me. My heart just sank when I saw her circle the word "FAIL". She did tell me, though, that my hand-scrub was good...I just hope she didn't say that to make me feel better about my failure (because I felt real idiotic for making such a small mistake). Of all lecturers to assess me, I had to get the Director of Nursing. I initially felt that she could have been a little more lenient...but then again, she has every right to fail me. A mistake, after all (and as much as I hate it), is still a mistake.

Sighnesssss........now I'll have to go for the second attempt.

But I thank God for my wonderful lecturer who was really, really encouraging, and for my friends: Sangeetha, Sheran, Yu Xuan, Chin Fang, Candy, Sunny, and Zul for trying to cheer me up (thanks, guys). And also for jiejie Eunice and Jo, for telling me that it's alright.

Yea, I'm upset...but it's time to move on. As Zul said, there's always a first time for everything (in my case, it's failing a skill assessment).

No matter what, I HAVE TO PASS MY SECOND ATTEMPT!!!!!
Posted by ltsmei at 8:11 PM ~
Sunday, July 30, 2006
PICK is a colour
Yes, it is...it is a combination of "pink and slick" (according to Mr. Terry Yeow).

Pink = Well...you know what colour that is.
Slick = Slippery, glossy, smooth.

Terry wants to be my sister's flower girl when she gets married. Hahahaha...and he wants a pweety dwess, as well as a "pick and purple" head band.

So Terry, here you go...I couldn't find one with both pink and purple, so you'll have to choose lah, huh.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH!!!!!!!!! Oh my gosh!! *Faints*

Wei, it's Hello Kitty, you know...don't you just LURVE Hello Kitty? =P Hehe. Okie lah...enough of all these lame nonsense (sorry ar, I'm a li'l stressed up). I've gotta go, peeps...having three tests tomorrow. Gahhh!!!

* By the way, I had a dream last night...dreamt that Jit was telling me I should write a book. Haha. And another dream today while I was taking a nap...I dreamt that I shot my ownself (with a gun)...and the bullet was stuck in my throat. Yucks. So weeeeird...
Posted by ltsmei at 10:11 PM ~
Friday, July 28, 2006
Work -> Pressure -> Stress


Another day which didn't start out all that nice.

Sometimes I just wanna sit there and sulk because I feel I'm being taken for granted...but that's just so immature. I cannot cannot cannot understand!! Sigh. It feels so yucky..and all I wanted to do was just to go home.

But my day got better. Had ice-cream again, only this time with Candy...hehe. And with Sunny laughing like that, how can I not feel better? =)

The workload's mounting...the pressure's rising...the stress's coming. I feel it.
Posted by ltsmei at 9:15 PM ~
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Blur...or blur?
Sigh...what a day.

My alarm clock rang and rang and rang (at 6.45am), but I slammed it down...woke up with a start half an hour later, thinking I was gonna be late for my 8.00am class. Made a grab at my towel and headed for the bathroom...but it was occupied.

When it was free, I rushed through my shower...brushed my teeth...put on some pants and top...rushed out of my block...flagged a cab...........................and I was on my way to school (thinking happily that I'd be in time). It costed me seven freaking bucks. Erghhh!!!

Walked hurriedly to my class.......only to find out that I didn't have to be there. Because no one reminded me that skill assessment starts TODAY (I thought it starts tomorrow). And I'M NOT EVEN SCHEDULED TO BE ASSESSED THIS WEEK. I couldn't believe it...everyone knew except me. And Chin Fang.

They later told me that I was always the one who remembers these kind of stuff...that's why they didn't think of sms'ing me.

Sighhhhhhh.........such a waste of time. I felt pretty unproductive, even though I tried reading and revising a little for my upcoming lab theory test. FOUR WHOLE HOURS!!!!!!!!!

How much dumber and blur'er can I get??!?!?!?! I'm so angry with myself.

Sigh................anyways, I've had an ice-cream and a nice walk with Sangeetha just now. The cool wind blowing into my face and through my hair makes me feel better.

Here's a joke for all of you who's had a bad day yourself.


There was a blonde woman who was having financial troubles, so she decided to kidnap a child and demand a ransom. She went to a local park, grabbed a little boy, took him behind a tree, and wrote this note: "I have kidnapped your child. I am sorry to do this, but I need the money. Leave $10,000 in a plain brown bag behind the big oak tree in the park at 7.00am. Signed, The Blonde."

She pinned the note inside the little boy's jacket and told him to go straight home. The next morning, she returned to the park to find the $10,000 in a brown bag behind the big oak tree, just as she had instructed.

Inside the bag was the following note: "Here is your money. I cannot believe that one blonde would do this to another."
Posted by ltsmei at 5:33 PM ~
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
The "P" Disease
I've just recovered and been set free from this horrible disease called PROCRASTINATION...in other words, the "P" Disease.

You see, I've been telling myself to clean up my study table ever since my last paper of last semester ended (which was like...umm April) ...but did I? Noooooooooo...I had to leave that pile of books and papers lying around my table, collecting dust.

So, I finally got down to tidying it...and you know lah, once you start tidying one part of the room, you just have to clean EVERYTHING up. I've still not yet finish cleaning and tidying. Haha...but, BUT.......my room will soon be sparkling so that when you enter in, you'll momentarily be blinded. Mwahahahahah!!!

Anyways, I've gotta go...gonna meet Jiejie Eunice and Jie Lin (Jae Son's sis). Toodles!

*I've just gotten my previous attachment pocket money...and a little something for my darlings at home (Jo, Pris & Jem: don't ask). I hope they'll be delighted =)
Posted by ltsmei at 4:30 PM ~
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Submission


This is what I learnt in church today:

"Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord" - Ephesians 5:22.

Yup, today Pastor spoke about how wives have to submit to their husbands. It's not something new...I thought I knew the real meaning of submission...but you know what, wives have to be submissive in EVERYTHING. As in...EVERYTHING.

Pastor touched an area I know most preachers wouldn't do so openly over the pulpit...he gave "sex education". Haha...no, not like those we hear about puberty and stuff, blah blah blah. He was speaking to the wives...that their bodies are not their own. Give your husband sex if he needs it (okie I'm so blunt. But it's the truth!). It's only a natural desire...nothing wrong with it. If you, as your husband's wife, don't give it to him, he'll get it somewhere else (that's why divorce is becoming a trend)...but that does not go to say that husbands can do that if they want sex.

So anyway, that was part of the sermon...it was suprising that Pastor broached this subject on a fine Sunday morning IN CHURCH over the pulpit, but it was good. I think some wives may have felt a pinch (not only the sex part...the whole sermon). Next week he would be speaking to the husbands. Hehehe...

Oh yar...and husbands can't force their wives to be submissive...it's got to be voluntary, a DELIBRATE choice (ladies, you hear it).

Advice for the day (this is for the ladies): When choosing a life partner, find someone whom you can RESPECT...because you'll have to submit to him in EVERYTHING. Even when you don't feel like it.

"Better to live on a corner of the roof than share a house with a quarrelsome wife" - Proverbs 21:9.
Posted by ltsmei at 8:01 PM ~
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Randoms
You know some of the things which irk me the most?

(1) Eating with your mouth NOT fully shut, producing a loud horrible noise. It is SO irritating. I can't say it any other way. Ergh.

(2) Dragging your feet...whether you're wearing shoes or slippers. The sound is just dreadful.




So..............? Advice:

(1) Eat with your mouth shut. And quietly. It's table manners, anyway...

(2) Stop dragging your feet. You'll have less people staring at you, trust me (if they still stare, it simply means you're good-looking).

There. Simple.


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Jo has inspired me...she showed me one of her art work yesterday. And I decided that I need to pick up my passion once again.

So after lunch today, I took out my pencils and spent a few hours sketching. After that I decided that it's not good to be cooped up in my room the whole day, so I went out for a while.

I've not had a Saturday spent like this in such a long time...it's good, sometimes. Solitude. I think I needed it this time. Just spending time for and with myself.

This is Jo's art work...pretty good, eh? My inspiration. =)

Posted by ltsmei at 8:12 PM ~
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
I was a zebra...once
My gosh......how can we forget this picture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Right, Mich? Right? Right??)


Ladies and gentlemen...let me share this BEAUTIFUL picture with you.

Now, on the left...that's Michelle. Beautiful alright. =) On the right...umm, I hate to tell you this, but that's me lah. Not so beautiful. Oh man, I remember that costume!!! It was sweltering wearing it...for my ballet performance, "Joy Jungle Joy". I even had a tail!!!!!!! Hahah. And all the practices we had...T.I.R.I.N.G.

I remember...Mum and Jem came to see me perform. Because I had two free tickets. Dad and the others had seen enough of me at my rehearsals already, I think. All my zebra'ing here and there...TRYING to gallop like a zebra. Oh my goodness...I WAS A ZEBRA!!!!!!!!

Umm...this picture was taken about four years ago, by the way.
Posted by ltsmei at 7:42 PM ~
Make my day, if you will
We're only into our third week of the semester, and skill assessments have already started.

"Good...you're very attentive."

Ooh.......heehee. A simple compliment from a lecturer can be so encouraging. =D I can now face the world with much BIGGER challenges. C'mon...BRING IT ON!!!!! And I'll show you what I can do!!!

*Sorry...Ly's a li'l high lah. She's been reading the whole afternoon, ever since she got home from school. Again, this is her evil twin speaking here. Shhh...don't tell anyone, kay...
Posted by ltsmei at 7:13 PM ~
Monday, July 17, 2006
THAT time of the month...
When your bowel system goes all haywire (you could be constipating and cirit-birit'ing in the same day, at funny hours of the day)...

When your head throbs to an unknown rhythm, accompanied by much pain...

When your back and neck and legs ache (and it's NOT due to exercise nor over-exercise)...

When your tummy cramps at the slightest move you make...

When you just feel like you're gonna puke...and puke. And puke...

When you just stare at the ceiling because you don't have the energy to do anything...

When all you wanna do is just LIE DOWN.............

...........it leaves you sleepless (but you fall asleep in the end, because you're just dead tired).
...........it feels like dying.

*Guys: Be thankful that you are guys.
Girlies: Be even more thankful that you are girls.
Posted by ltsmei at 4:12 PM ~
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Pleasant surprises
It was one day full of surprises...

First of all, someone sent me a bouquet of flowers in the morning. They smelt so sweet!!!

Then someone (I don't know who) made breakie for me...boy, wasn't I delighted...

Just before lunch, I checked my mailbox. Got a letter from a long-lost friend!

Went to Gunung Lambak to climb with the youths...met Thilaga, a good friend I haven't seen in ages!!! Almost two years, I think...or maybe more than that. It was SOOOOO good seeing her again.

Okie, okie..............enough of lies. Only the last one is true. Kekekekekeh.....I mean, can't you tell from the third line?! Who would make breakie for me?? And no, no one left me flowers. Haha! You must have been wondering who, aye? =P

Anyways, most of us made it to the top of Gunung Lambak. I did! =) Now, I'm a TRUE Kluangite.
Posted by ltsmei at 7:23 PM ~
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Malaysia IS safe (read that right)
I met up with a friend just the other day. It was pleasant......until we got to the part where my friend asked, "Aren't you afraid everytime you go back to Malaysia?"

And I was thinking, "WHAT??!??!"

That's it. I've had enough of it. It's getting on my nerves already.

Many people in this particular country, apparently, think that Malaysia isn't safe (and I know my friend was implying it)...and do you know why they think so? Because of the news they hear about our country...rape, murder, robbery, theft, accidents, terrorism. Yah.

I'm sorry, but to me, it sounds totally ridiculous...just because you hear about such stories in the news, it doesn't mean that it's like that EVERYWHERE in Malaysia. And it doesn't give you the license to label Malaysia "NOT SAFE". What makes you think your country is so safe? I won't deny the fact that such things are more rampant these days...we are after all living in a perverse and wicked world...and it's not getting any better.

But please...don't tell me where I live and grew up isn't safe (no where in the world is safe, anyway). Because otherwise, you wouldn't be seeing me anymore, since I go back to Kluang so very often...

Sheesh.

Think twice if you're gonna ask me such silly questions again. I happen to love the place where I come from...and I happen to be a li'l more patriotic than you think. Because I'm Malaysian. A proud one, that is. All the more reason for me to go back as often as I can afford the time (and if you've got a problem with that, I shall have nothing to say. It is, after all, your problem).

*Some people think Kluang is such an ulu place...sure, it isn't all that exciting. But it so happens that the people are. It doesn't offer much entertainment...but the people bring joy. It isn't such an interesting place, really, if you've been to bigger cities...but it IS home.
Posted by ltsmei at 5:38 PM ~
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
My kind of LIKES...
Yes...........these are the kind of stuff that interest me. Hehe. I know, I know...you must be thinking," What?!??"




Bottles, candles, ribbons, boxes, cloth, coloured papers...yah, even organizer boxes (the last pic) make my heart beat faster. And pump harder. Heheh. I have one organizer box...it looks real neat! And I put all my art stuff in it. =)

I may like these kind of stuff...but I don't usually buy them. Unless they are so irresistibly stunning. But so far.........nope. Not yet. Except for the organizer box.
Posted by ltsmei at 9:17 PM ~
Monday, July 10, 2006
Italy is the Champion
Haha. I told Zul last week, that Italy would win the World Cup (and they did). But he was so sure France would win.

Not that I'm an Italian fan...just thought I'd say that to him for fun. Hehehe. Still, I was right!!! =P
Posted by ltsmei at 5:49 PM ~
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Announcement
*Ahem......ahemmmmm.....mic test..........mic test*

Dear everybody,

Ly has cut-eth her hair-eth. =)

She has, recently, been surprising herself more and more...she is pleased to announce that, for the VERY FIRST TIME, she did not complain that her hair was cut "too short". In fact, she is rather pleased with her new hair style.

So...why did she cut her hair? Well, simply because she has progressed in the area of being more adventurous...so yeah. You see, people do change over time...some become smarter, some become taller, some put on weight, some suddenly take an interest in something he/she has never even known it existed before...and some just become more adventurous.

Okies, that's all I wanted to announce. Have a great week, everybody...buh-bye!
(This is Ly's evil twin speaking here...mwahahahhahah!!!!!!!!)
Posted by ltsmei at 9:43 PM ~
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Cat fight & KINDER BUENO
My gosh...I was sent a link and it was this video (captured on phone) of school girls, in their school uniform, cat-fighting. Really, I don't know what their problem is, but they were so barbaric. I didn't know girls could get so...CRAZY. Yucks. It was these three girls hitting, slapping, and pulling this one other girl's hair...shouting and screaming. And they kept saying, "Ni you mei you chiang?" (translated: "Did you say/tell or not?").

I think they are possessed. What's the world becoming into?? Sigh..............*shakes head*

Anyways, here's something to cheer all of us up...



KINDER BUENO!!
Mmmmmmmmmmm............I love Kinder Bueno =) It is good company when you're at a really monotonous lecture, when travelling back to Kluang from Singapore and you have nothing much to do except to plug in your MP3 player, when you're reading a good book, when you're watching a nice movie. Anywhere, anytime...ahhhhhh!! Chocolates...just love them! =D
Posted by ltsmei at 9:13 PM ~
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Stuffed
Woke up this morning, had classes from 9am till 12pm...came home for lunch, then I spent the whole afternoon reading, then falling asleep, then reading again. Such a great book...I can't seem to put it down (but I fell asleep because I was really tired. Hehe). But when it came close to 6pm, I had to...because I was going out. For dinner. With Jiejie. And Sarah Thomas. =)

It was great fun! We really had a nice time. We went to the Night Safari...Sarah works there, you see (but she had the day off today). Nice place...and dinner was scrumptious!! I was so so so so so stuffed.

There was even a tribal performance...it was rather entertaining.


Cool, eh?














Playing with fire...














Pole-dancing...hahahaha!!


















We were supposed to make terrified faces...but it turned out this way. Hehe...failed attempt.

















Just us. And the pondok.














And............last one for now:


This girl was really, REALLY stuffed...trying to finish up her food. Because she will not have food being wasted. My gosh...she looks terrible, doesn't she? Blame it on the photographer! =P














One little advice for today: Kids, be good and don't play with fire at home.

Okies...that's it. Toodles, everyone...I am tar-yeard...........
Posted by ltsmei at 11:31 PM ~
Sunday, July 02, 2006
One pure and holy passion
Okie...CSI: New York's showing on AXN now and I'm here instead. What happened?? Well...simply because I chose sleep over CSI. Haha...and when I decided to wake up, Dad's music was on...is still on. So...I decided that I'll skip CSI today. Just for today...

I'm going back to Singapore later in the evening...school's starting again tomorrow. And I'm anticipating a GREAT and FRUITFUL final year in my nursing course. How time flies...it feels like I've just left for Singapore. And I'll be graduating next year!!

*Oh Lord, I have a prayer burning within me. As I go back to school and begin my final year, I ask that You'll please, bless my whole school year and may Your favour rest upon me. May I be so caught up in the passion of knowing You and rediscovering Your goodness and faithfulness once again...let me be so in love with You...

Give me one pure and holy passion,
Give me one magnificent obsession,
Give me one glorious ambition for my life,
To know and follow hard after You.

To know and follow hard after You,
To grow as Your disciple in Your truth,
This world is empty, pale and poor,
Compared to knowing You, my Lord,
Lead me on and I will run after You,
Lead me on and I will run after You.
(by Mark Altrogge)

And let it not stop there, Lord...let this passion for You burn till the day I breathe my last breath. Let it be unquenchable...let it not be taken away by feelings, nor circumstances, nor people around me. Let it burn so bright and let it bring glory to You and You alone.

I don't want to be pulled down by circumstances that may come my way...I don't want to be pulled down by friends who may jeer at me and "make it difficult" for me, just because I stand up for my beliefs and for what I love. I want to stand up for You, and come out of my trials and tribulations stronger than before.

This is my prayer, Lord: Please bless my final school year, and use me to whatever extent that You want to, to bring blessing to other lives. Give me a heart of love for others...in Jesus' name I ask all these. AMEN.

Yours alone,
Ly
Posted by ltsmei at 2:15 PM ~
Saturday, July 01, 2006
Matters of the heart
The things Jit shared with me just now over dinner...it was good. It was good just to talk...oh, and eat. Hehe.

He was telling me some stuff about guys we girls will never understand. Yeah...there are some things I wish I could understand about guys, but that's the way God made them. And I will never understand...it's just a "guy thing" (Don't get me wrong...I do love guys. *All you guys I know out there, I love you all!). So, what I cannot and never will understand, that is what I will learn to accept =)

And...the songs Ryan chose for worship, and the message Yoshua shared at YF today couldn't have been more apt for me...it's so amazing how God knows what I'm going through, and He ministers to my very needs.

When hope is lost, I'll call You Saviour
When pain surrounds, I'll call You Healer
When silence falls, You'll be the Song within my heart
(excerpt from Tim Hughes' "When Tears Fall")

*God, thank You for today, and for every single thing that's taking place in my life right now. Thank You for people who surround me with love and care...thank You that I can trust You. I love You.
Posted by ltsmei at 10:44 PM ~
There's nothing like......
There's nothing like......

(1) having a good night's sleeeeeeeep....ahh! How blissful... =)

(2) watching footie with Dad. It's really amusing! Heehee...

(3) wathing CSI...my all time favourite!!!!!! I get somewhat a li'l recharged everytime I watch it.

(4) a good long chat with David, who's just came back from the land of the Aussie's...I think he's matured a bit since the last time he came back.

(5) cleaning up fish and getting splattered with fish blood all over your pyjamas.

(6) having home-cooked food.

(7) feeling the wind in your hair and the breeze brushing against your skin. Mmmmmmmhhhhh!!

(8) catching good movies on Astro. I've managed to catch a few good ones...

(9) clearing "blur" (at least on my part) things up between two people. I have a clearer direction now. *Thank you, to you-know-who-you-are*

(10) having two weeks of break and spending them wisely...and carefully.

(11) school starting again...yea, school again. Hmmm.

(12) being loved by my Constant Companion and Everlasting Friend.

(13) being in the presence of my Constant Companion and Everlasting Friend.
Posted by ltsmei at 12:47 PM ~