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* the loveLY. the ugLY.....

Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Badly needed: An upgrade
Second paper done...next one on Thursday. Oh Thursday...come QUICK!!!

I spent the beautiful weekend in Kluang...although most of Saturday was spent studying first (in S'pore). Got back to S'pore on the morning train yesterday...seriously, KTM needs an upgrade.

I was falling asleep when I felt something crawling just above my knees...my eyelids flew open and tada! A COCKROACH!!! In an instant, I flicked it off with my bare hands...wah lao...so menjijikkan!!!!!

The ride back was scary...NEVER have I seen so many M people around. After raya, that's why. And the guys...S-C-A-R-Y. It's like, they've never laid eyes on a Chinese girl before. Erghhh!!! And they wouldn't make way for me to move...on purpose. And you know, I have no idea why they can't stick to their seats...apparently, their butts find it more comfortable on the arm-rests. Sheesh...

I couldn't sleep the whole journey...but I couldn't open my eyes either...the guys' stares were really scaring me. I think I looked pretty stupid sitting there next to a big-sized guy, who also occupied a fifth of my seat, clutching my bag tightly, earphones plugged into my ears, eyes firmly shut.

KTM needs an upgrade. Stupid cockroach...

Anyways, this is what Jo and I did on Saturday night (I love doing this kind of thing big scale!!!).

Please contribute something, folks...it's for the under-privileged children that we're gonna reach out to at Christmas. Read Jo's blog for more info. =)
Posted by ltsmei at 10:47 PM ~
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Berita Terkini
Ms Sangeetha Sarma n. the epitome of BLURNESS. See also extreme blurness, terrible confusion.

Actions of the stated above: Studied for the WRONG module yesterday.

Oh my goshnesssss.......... *faints* I have nothing else to say. Zero. Nada. Zilch. Kosong. Yilek.

BUT...I still love her. =)


Anyways, one down...two more to go.
Posted by ltsmei at 2:28 PM ~
Thursday, October 26, 2006
That's my Daddy
I was talking with Jem on Skype, and then she says that Daddy wanted to pray for me because my exams are starting tomorrow...so along came Daddy on the mic...

Daddy: Hello...are you there?

Ly: Yup, I'm here...hi Dad.

Daddy: Hiiiii...come let us pray for you (Mummy and Jem were around in the kitchen). Are you connected?

Ly: Okie...yah, I am.

Daddy: Okie...is God connected? God, are you connected? (And I thought that was really funny and cute of Daddy to say that...hahahahah!!!)

Ly: *Giggle giggle giggle*

Then Daddy prays for me to be confident, not be fearful, not worry, to remember what I've studied, to write the right answers.

Doesn't he look so good? I seriously think he's the most good-looking guy his age. And now I'm missing home even more...sighhhhhhh.........

To Daddy: Thank you so much...for everything. Your prayers, your support, your love, your concerns, your money. No one can ever replace you! I love you. =)

To God: Thank You for an awesome dad You've given me...above all, You're my heavenly Father.

One important thing Dad told me: Don't worry...you won't accomplish anything by worrying.
Posted by ltsmei at 6:44 PM ~
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
That's what they say...
Most frequently said to me lately...

(1) "Hey, you lost weight huh?" (I know!!!!! I know I have...and I'm really trying not to!!!!!)

(2) "Ly, so-and-so is a good guy, you know...seriously. Blah blah blah........" (Umm...okkkkieee. I don't know if they are anxious for me or what...or just want to create a love-life for me. Haha!)

(3) "Apa lagi??!??!" (Honestly, I still don't know what it means...my landlady's househelp keeps using it and it's getting really, really annoying. Ergh...)

(4) "So what are you gonna do tomorrow?" (Umm study?? What else can I do??!)

(5) "Did you cut your hair?" (Noooo...the last time I had a haircut was almost two months ago...)

* I think I'm fine...but it looks tougher than I thought it would be. It's been quite some time...I hope it ends soon, one way or another. And this should be the last thing on my mind right now, but I don't know why I'm thinking about it.....help me, God, please...
Posted by ltsmei at 8:32 PM ~
Monday, October 23, 2006
Tsk
I. AM. SICK. OF. STUDYING.

Almost everyone I know is having holidays and a gala time. And I'm not. This feeling sucks...sigh........

=(
Posted by ltsmei at 9:05 PM ~
Psalm 42
I will never read Psalm 42 without understanding, ever again...today's sermon has shed much light and I am amazed at the wonderful message it holds...

Lesson learnt:
(1) Be real about your struggles - not false triumph, not self-pity
(2) Remember WHO has been good...not just the good things - focus on the GIVER of good things
(3) Speak positively to your soul

Awesome message...I don't know about the others, but the sermon was like...whoa, God speaking to me directly. Like, in my face. But it's good...because He's speaking. =)

By the way...I have come upon this great realization that certain music can trigger certain kinds of feelings. And certain kinds of voices make me just wanna melt...ahhhhhhhhhh.............

* God, please give me a guy who has a nice voice, nice teeth, who'll sing for me...and has no bad breath (okie God, I know...what a prayer).
Posted by ltsmei at 12:49 PM ~
Saturday, October 21, 2006
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I have no idea why blogger needs us to put up a title for every post we make. Hah. I'm running out of titles... (that's Zimbabwean up there, by the way)

Anyways, we had our first Christmas band practice last night...it was pretty good, if you ask. Wish I could have just sat there all night at the piano, not having to worry about the upcoming exams, or other stuff on my mind...oh well...

Came home around 11pm plus to my little bedroom with a whole pile of books and notes on my table staring me in the face (but I had enough of muggin' for the day), and to the fact that jiejie Eunice was back in Kluang.

And so...I'm alone again for the weekend. Thank God it's a Sunday tomorrow...it means church and CG. Plus Sangeetha asked us over for dinner tomorrow. Yay for friends...

As for now, I have to get out of the house...my landlady's mother blasts the TV almost the whole day...think I'll just hang around at the library with my pile of books and notes. Should be loads of fun lah...

Yea right... *rolls eyes*

Before I take my leave, here's a picture I really love (Jo made it):

Posted by ltsmei at 2:06 PM ~
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Dreamin'
Oh my gosh...I just watched a super duper cool video Jo posted in her blog. Man, I am so inspired!!! I miss performing...not so much to be seen or be at center stage...just miss the rush of adrenaline coming over me before a performance, miss having to practice for a dance, miss the "anxious" feeling...and most of all, the sense of satisfaction after performing. And I miss choreographing dances, and teaching the steps...oh sighhh.......

I realize I have many unlived dreams...or yet to be lived. I've always wanted to write a book...and compose songs. But sometimes I think that maybe people won't like reading what I write, or find my songs boring...

Sarah and I were at Life Bookshop last week, looking at some CDs, and she said, "Look at how many uncomposed songs that could be here". That made me see those racks of CDs in a new perspective...

And when I told her I want to compose songs, but not sure if they would be good, she said, "That's the problem...you're not confident!" Hmmm...how true, I think. Plus, it's not like I don't have any musical instrument...I've got my piano...

Anyways, dreams and aspirations aside...my day was pretty cool. You know what...the more time I spend with Candy (whether studying or just chatting), the more I realize that we share quite a lot in common...but I'll write about that another time. =)

Okie, it's time to say goodbye...I need to study. Oh darn. *Big groan* Toodles...
Posted by ltsmei at 8:31 PM ~
A Brand New Discovery
TUESDAY, Singapore - A fellow student of NYP, Ms.Lydia Tang, 20 years old, has discovered a new route to go to school. In all her two and a half years in Singapore, she has never known that she could take Bus 159 from AMK Avenue 8 to AMK Avenue 5, instead of taking Bus 261 all the way to the interchange and there after walking for another 15 minutes into school (while polluting her lungs on the way, due to inconsiderate people smoking like chimneys outside the school overhead bridge).

"I can't believe I've never discovered this before! Fancy getting to know about this in the FINAL week of my first semester of my FINAL year!" she exclaimed. Now, she can be free from polluted air (not that the air now is very clean) when she goes to school.

Therefore, we hereby give our heartiest congratulations to Ms.Lydia Tang upon her discovery.

WHY DIDN'T I DISCOVER IT EARLIER?!??!?!?!?!?!!!
Posted by ltsmei at 12:10 AM ~
Saturday, October 14, 2006
And this is life...
Uncle Wong passed away yesterday...Mummy sms'ed and it came as a shock to me as it did to everyone else. How could we have known? And how could Aunty Wong have known that it would be the last time she would be seeing him when he dropped her off at the saloon?

I'm rather sad...now she has to survive life and the cancer without her husband. I just hope she knows that God is constantly holding her in His arms and never letting her go.

At this juncture, I can't help but ponder upon the uncertainty of life...and I appreciate every second spent with Daddy, just the both of us on our way back from the wake last night, talking about my cousin and his girlfriend (haha, what a topic)...and enjoying every moment spent with my family in the living room till around 1am plus...We were all lepak'ing around, chatting and laughing, giving Daddy facial treatment and massage...

Oh sigh...life and death...
Posted by ltsmei at 2:52 PM ~
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Grace so amazing
Man...I am so dead tired.

I finally passed my re-assessment...all by God's grace. You know something...I've come to realize (again) that things don't have to work out all fine and dandy all the time. We'll never learn anything that way...

Like how amazing a lecturer Miss Tan is...or how funny and cute Cheryl can be (despite her age, haha) ...or how unbelievably quiet Sunny gets when she's so nervous...or how sweet and supportive my friends are (they cheered the minute I stepped out of the assessment room)...or how blessed I really am ...and most of all, how time and time again, God's character surfaces through the hard times.

Last night I was freaking out with fear and doubting my own confidence in my clinical skills, and I so desperately wanted to cry...but no tears came. Still, I sat at my table, running through my notes again and again and again...

Then the call came. From my Dad. And he said the very words I needed to hear, "Just do your best, may God be with you...and go in the confidence of the Lord, okay". By the time we put the phone down, the tears just came...again I'm so amazed at how God knows my very needs.

I'm surrounded by some of the most awesome people in the world...and to all of you people (you know who you are), I thank you for seeing me through my tough times (and I'm not only talking about lately), for walking together with me through the hurdles in life, for praying, for listening, for making me laugh even when life is far from funny, and most of all, for being there...

And to my Constant Companion and Friend, I owe you my life...I am still learning to understand that Your grace is sufficient for me, that You're always faithful. And when You allow hard times in my life, it does not mean that You want to extend my suffering, but You want to extend Your grace. For that, I am forever grateful...
Posted by ltsmei at 1:45 AM ~
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Decide. Plan. Act.
I'm trying once again, to understand different personalities and character traits...some people are not planners and can't decide for their own what they want. Or what is best. And some just get so easily distracted...they have such short attention span...the minute something else or someone comes along, they divert their attention from the focus point. And still, some others haven't the slightest clue about punctuality...

I know I'm a planner and decisive (note: Decisive-ness have different levels, okie...I'm decisive enough to know what I want and be chop-chop about it and get it done).

I also know that I CANNOT (and I don't) expect people to be like me...but seriously, certain things need to be done in a certain time frame. And if you don't plan properly, your life is gonna be affected...worse still, if other people are involved, they are gonna be affected.

Some character traits can, and need to be learnt...seriously. Sorry guys, but I really needed to say this...

Posted by ltsmei at 8:18 PM ~
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Enough already
I will await the day when I have no more projects to think about...no more skill assessments to worry about...no more written reports to mull over. I've been and am doing all that while trying to concentrate on studying at the same time.

That day would be...next Thursday (provided I'm also done with the written report by that time).

Then all I'll have to do is plunge into my BIG heap of notes and stick my head in there for the next two weeks. That would be a real treat (treat??!), without the projects and assessments and reports and running nose and cough and body aches and whatever else.......................

Please tell me I'll survive this semester.
Posted by ltsmei at 1:27 AM ~
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Sick. Again.
It hasn't even been a month since I last recovered. I am sick again...

Obviously, stress and recent events are takin' its toll on me and my health (I don't usually get sick easily)...it is a tough season and I don't know when is it going to be over.

* Lord, please see me through...I need Your strength...
Posted by ltsmei at 10:00 PM ~
Monday, October 02, 2006
Surviving life
It's always easier to pretend...but then again, you're living in a REAL world; you can't pretend for long. You can't pretend that everything's alright in your life when in actual fact, life seem to be placing you in difficult and trying circumstances...

I had a horrible day...woke up and got the most discouraging sms...then I failed my skill assessment. AGAIN. This has never happened before...I'm tempted to think that certain lecturers find great pleasure in failing students...particularly one lecturer. So much so that the other lecturers in the same room as her find it pressurising if they don't fail at least one student.

So I happen to have learnt the skill another way...and the assesser expects me to perform HER way, the way SHE taught her students.

It was horrifying...she told me where I went wrong. I tried rationalising with her, but she wouldn't accept...so I shut up. And I think it isn't really fair that I blame the lecturer for my failure. It just happened.

I could lie in bed crying myself to sleep, complaining to God how sad things are...but, no. Ly is tougher than that...not fiercely tough, but in her own quiet ways. And she's done with crying, anyway...time to move on.

"Don't try to figure out what God's teaching you by this, don't try to understand it, and don't try to understand God. If He could fit into your idea of Him, He'd be too small for any of us."
Posted by ltsmei at 9:24 PM ~
Sunday, October 01, 2006
FRIENDS #4
I believe in.......ACCUPRESSURE.

Yes. Or rather...I believe in anything that would ease the pain. The hormones have ill-treated me again...as always. =(

I'm reading the last storybook from the Redemption Series...and it is SOOOOOOOOO captivating. Really...really amazing. It's fiction, yet it depicts such realistic life circumstances...the ones like you and I go through...and tears keep welling up in the corner of my eyes, mostly because it speaks so much of God's character...if you ever get hold of this series, you'll be very much blessed, trust me...

Okie, it's high time I continued posting about other people...let me introduce my beloved cousin to you:

ONG KAY AUN
This is my closest cousin and am really fond of him...when he was young, he was really mischievious. But LOADS of fun. Once when we had an extended family holiday in Port Dickson, we were playing on the swings and he kept pushing me so high...I was afraid, so I made a threat: "If you don't stop pushing me, I will come down there and give you a kiss, then you will never disturb me anymore!"

"Come lah! See if you can get off the swing first!"

Determined, I got off the swing (forgetting my fear), marched right up to him...and planted a quick peck on his cheek, so certain that he wouldn't disturb me anymore...because Mommy always told me that if people disturbed you, give them a kiss and they will surely run away. But it wasn't the case with this cousin of mine...he had the cheek, even after the peck, to swing me even higher...

But that was when we were really young...hahahaha...recalling that now, I can only laugh. Oh man...but seriously, this Mr.Ong is a great guy. I love him. =)
Posted by ltsmei at 9:27 PM ~